Monday, November 17, 2025

the oak leaf steam baths: a site of resistance, a cathedral of pleasure -- kaiya nixon -- 17/10/2025


Photo by Kaiya Nixon


I lived at 214 Bathurst Street for years; my apartment was attached to a decaying building, which stood defiantly untouched. Worn-out letters clung to its dark brick like a whispered secret: Oak Leaf Steam Baths. Below that, in weathered bold: 

“PRIVATE ROOMS, OPEN 24 HOURS, ORIGINAL WET & DRY STEAMS.”.

From our shared rooftop, I’d gaze down into its cavernous belly, a derelict husk of something once dripping with heat, sweat, and…sex. Open from 1941 to 2015, this bathhouse had nearly eight decades of secrets soaked into its tiled walls—and I needed to know what they were.  Eventually, I found out from none other than legendary filmmaker and queer oracle, Bruce LaBruce, who gave me a glimpse into its scandalous past. 

Last November, I found myself at a screening of Super 8½—LaBruce’s 1994 satirical porno-drama—screened inside the very building where it was originally shot, just weeks before it was set to be demolished. 

Located at 156 Bathurst, the ex-printing house had once been occupied by LaBruce, who had a ‘Warholian’ vision for its vast and open space. It became a site where film, porn, and queer art converged. Later reborn as Soybomb—a DIY punk venue from 2003 to 2017—it kept pulsing on as an epicentre in Toronto’s underground (shoutout Slash Need).

In an early scene from Super 8½, the impossibly sexy Klaus von Brucker—LaBruce’s co-star and former lover—strikes a match and lights a cigarette outside the Oak Leaf Steam Baths. Shot on grainy Super 8, the bathhouse looks radiant, almost mythic—especially with Von Brucker smouldering in front of it. 

Hours later, walking home from the screening, I noticed something new on its walls: a glossy sign slapped across its façade reading, “THE EXCITEMENT IS BUILDING.” The bathhouse was being reborn—as a boutique hotel. The irony was thick. So I asked LaBruce what kind of excitement really went down inside.


Photo by Kaiya Nixon

LaBruce didn’t set foot in a bathhouse until 1982—just a year after the Toronto Metropolitan police raided four of the city’s gay bathhouses in the now-infamous Operation Soap raids. Around 300 men were arrested in what was then the biggest mass arrest in Canadian history.  The raids ignited mass protests and acted as a catalyst for the gay community to mobilize against the police's homophobia and brutality, which defined the period. 

But instead of extinguishing bathhouse culture as the raids intended, LaBruce emphasizes how, after the raids, “It came back in full force—stronger than before.” 

Operation Soap ignited a new wave of momentum for Canada’s Gay Liberation movement—already surging through the mid to late ’70s with its potent mix of sexual freedom and radical politics. 

As LaBruce recalls, “Its political expression was tied inextricably to sexual radicalism. The core was sex—crazy sex, as much of it as you could have, in public spaces, with as many people as possible. All sorts of more public and communal expressions of sexuality.”

This wasn’t mere hedonism—it was defiance. It was a cultural moment where public sex became a form of protest.  “That was more the mood of the gay world at that time,” LaBruce notes. “So having sex at a sauna was considered a political act—to be very libertine with your sexuality, and to give it full expression.” 

In these spaces, desire doubled as demonstration, and pleasure pulsed with political charge. LaBruce described the towel as the “great equalizer”—a garment that dissolved markers of class and background, collapsing social hierarchies into a shared, sweaty anonymity. Thrust by thrust, the revolution moved forward, slick with heat and defiance.

Up until the early ’90s, the bars in Toronto shut down at 1 a.m., leaving many craving more after-hours action—enter the bathhouses, open 24/7 and pulsing with opportunity for a hot fix. LaBruce breaks it down: “There was kind of a different sauna for every type of gay person.”

The Barracks—tucked away on Widmer Street, where the Scotiabank Theatre now stands—was the leather-and-chains pitstop for the S&M crowd, and was, unsurprisingly, a key target in the Operation Soap raids. The Romans, on Bay, was a campy gay mirage: Roman columns, Greco gods, and a layout like a labyrinth. Then, the Club Baths, smack in the middle of what LaBruce refers to as the “gay ghetto,” or The Village as we know it, drew in a younger, more mainstream crowd. 

And then there was the Oak Leaf—old-school, Euro-style, and never officially branded a gay bathhouse, though behind its fogged-up windows, most men knew exactly what they were there for.


Via City of Toronto Archives

LaBruce reminisced about the Oak Leaf’s archaic allure: “There were attendants with oak branches dipped in some kind of herbal ointment—they’d gently caress your body with them.” I told him it sounded deliciously erotic. He went on to say, “Yeah, yeah, but it wasn’t supposed to be erotic. It was more like the Turkish baths in Istanbul—a culture where homosexuality is still taboo, so these spaces become sites of discreet sexual release for men.”

And that’s exactly what the Oak Leaf became—a pressure valve for the married, the closeted, the men with no other outlet. It masqueraded as a traditional European bathhouse. But pull back the towel, and you’d find a discreet refuge for getting off without getting caught (if luck was on your side). 

Of course, as LaBruce reminds us, part of the thrill was precisely that “it was a bit dangerous.” That edge—the risk, the secrecy—was an undeniable part of its appeal. 

Upstairs, the Oak Leaf had private rooms—officially for a bit of privacy, maybe a nap. This is characteristic of traditional European bathhouses dating back to the Middle Ages, where many were equipped with sleeping chambers--establishing their early association with erotic diversions.

“That’s where the hustlers were,” LaBruce said. 

The space operated under a veil of plausible deniability because the Oak Leaf was never publicly identified as a gay venue, and management could maintain a posture of ignorance. “They knew it was happening,” LaBruce explained, “but they wouldn’t acknowledge it. Because once you acknowledged it, you had to admit it was gay, and that gay sex was happening. So it was that classic old-school denial of reality.” 

Because the Oak Leaf tolerated hustling—unlike other bathhouses of the era, like the Barracks, where even the suspicion of hustling could get you suspended—it attracted a markedly different crowd. In a strange twist, the old-guard denial of gay sex actually created room for transactional desire to not only exist, but thrive. It became a space where bodies could negotiate, perform, and exchange—in the hidden corners of the upper floor.

If you weren’t feeling the pull of the private rooms upstairs, there was always the lounge. LaBruce recalls how men would “lie around in their towels reading the newspaper, and you know, socializing.”

Kaiya on the roof of Oak Leaf, 2022. Photo by Holly 

Maybe you’d catch someone’s eye, share a lingering glance, and treat them to a post-steam snack—thanks to Mimi’s Café, conveniently attached to the bathhouse. Through a little interior window, Mimi would serve up hot food to patrons still damp from their soak.

Mimi was far more than a cook—she was a central figure in the Queen West milieu of the 1980s, moving within intersecting networks of queer artists, punks, and political dissidents. Her café became a de facto gathering place for Toronto’s queer and countercultural underground, remembered by many for its spirit of radical hospitality.

LaBruce, who worked at the iconic Queen West restaurant La Hacienda at the time, was a regular at Mimi’s café. He recalls how the neighbourhood was the artistic epicentre of the city—bohemian, affordable, and deeply enmeshed in the politics of queer liberation. 

“Toronto was quite fun in the ’80s!” he laughs, citing hotspots like The Cameron—a venue so popular it required a membership—and artist-run centres like A Space, which fostered a lively scene.

But LaBruce also complicates the mythos surrounding Mimi. “I always found her quite terrifying—a bit imperialist, and very flamboyant,” he admits, hinting at the tension between her commanding presence and her near cult-like status. “On any given night, you could be blessed or banished.”

“If she took a liking to you, it was all good,” LaBruce told me. “But if you said the wrong thing—or did something she didn’t approve of—you’d get a whole lot of shade when you walked in.”

Curious where he stood in her hierarchy of favour, I asked if he’d ever offended her. He smirked: “Probably.” 

Photo by Kaiya Nixon

But beyond any one story, the Oak Leaf holds a collective memory. Discreet to a fault, it thrived precisely because it didn’t scream its purpose—its reputation of subtlety allowed it to become one of the city's longest-running gay-identified businesses. 

The sign outside reads,  “THE EXCITEMENT IS BUILDING.” But the real excitement has already coursed through its walls--hot and hungry. Walk past 216 Bathurst and remember it not for what it's becoming, but for what it was: a site of resistance, a cathedral of pleasure. 

Tuesday, September 2, 2025

the mini skirt diaries (berlin, athens, naxos and warsaw) 08/02/2025 - 08/18/2025


At around 5:30 a.m., a dozen or so beers and two viles deep, I realized I was having trouble holding in my pee. See, the problem with Berlin is that they don’t have toilet seats to sit on at the club. Not that I would recommend ever sitting on them unless you're piss drunk to the point where you can’t see. I was teetering on that. I’d try to hover, gripping my skirt to avoid pee staining it, just low enough that it wouldn’t trickle down my legs into my boots.


I failed at performing a basic human task that we were trained to do from a very early age. Nothing was coming out. By the time I’d stand up after struggling to hover, it would let go in my skort. This happened four times. Four times I’d hoped to god that I could just pee a stream, I could so easily do squatting in an alleyway. Nothing. Swimsuit material or not, I could feel it. 


Luckily, it never went below my crotch. 

“Ugh, I hate 3mmc, it makes you smell like cat piss!” B told me a couple of days after I got back. I should’ve stayed in my piss soaked mini skirt, what did it even matter? I was even told at Bowie about Berghain's piss hole that we completely missed. “There’s a hole in the ground that goes straight into someone's mouth.” The Piss Goblin? Fuck. I would’ve been terrible at it, considering my aim.

  

For the rest of the night at Aedan, or morning, we sat with the Chilean guys we had just met as they told us about tagging while doing bumps off their credit card. We told them about the Cafeteria in return. 


I had gotten the skirt as a gift from C one day when I was sitting at 96 Tears and trying on their new slouch tees. Two sizes too big, I held it up using a comically large Hanna-Barbera-style safety pin.

 

The skirt was worn almost every day in Berlin. It saw both night and day. On Tuesday, we took it to Church near the Fernsehturm. “I don’t think I’m dressed appropriately for this,” I told M. 



We spent 45 minutes here


“Just cover your shoulders,” he replied, pulling up my sleeves to cover my bra straps. I looked down to see 3/4 of my bare legs exposed, and then my torso to the long sleeve I had on. On Wednesday, it saw evil Berlin Angel Money and her B2B partner spin at Phantom Bar, a velvet den made for reformed drainers turned opium-heads and one single American. 


On Thursday, the fateful piss night, it first made an appearance at Ficken 3000. We’d missed the porn screening by 3 hours, but it played on every screen you could find throughout the night. The film looked as though it was shot in the basement of the club, all in black and white, unless I entered into dog vision at some point. All I could think about was how incredible the lighting was — how could someone capture the curvature of a bottom's arch so beautifully? Shadows that illuminated a vaginal hole. Stunning, even though I can only retain 10 full seconds of memory of the film. 


It was pinched, yanked, and honked in the basement. Ficken was my first intro to Berlin. As I sat on a couch smoking with M, which led to a Turkish man telling me how his incredibly large penis wouldn’t be able to fit in my vagina, but we could try. It apparently wasn’t able to with most. I think he was wearing a durag. He then asked me if I’d like my mephedrone cut with ketamine.  Later that night, I almost burned a hole in it, meeting L from Toronto. We talked about how similar our upbringings had been, smoking near the staff stairs of Aedan. We might have talked for hours about Toronto, how much she hated it and how much I loved it.  



Outside of Arkaoda on our last Friday Night

 

On Friday, our last night out, the skirt found itself at Arkaoda first for RegularFantasy. For a brief moment, we danced, beer spilling all over the skirt near the decks. However, it mostly sat in the candlelit upstairs lounge where S spoke about spirituality and purpose. Coming out of a three-day fever, S was rejuvenated and had lust for meaning and the beauty of life once again. Their joie de vivre was back. I was pretty high at this point, but I remember him saying something along the lines of “everyone has a type of god.” 


I’ve found myself consistently thinking how I’d rather believe in something rather than devote my life to the fearfulness of nothing. You can’t force yourself to believe in a specific religion or entity; you can try, but it won’t be as real as being drawn to it. That’s why I hate Hare Krishnas, or more so, missionaries.


I don’t give a rat's ass fuck about convincing someone to look upon someone else's God for solis, it doesn’t feel right. That being said, would it be so wrong of me to fake my devotion to Catholicism to find peace and discipline in joining a nunnery? They won’t have cocaine there! They might have cigarettes, that’s my deal breaker. 


The skirt did go to Berghain that night. A whimsical mess of an establishment, where Zionism is welcomed by the established management and probably hated by the service staff. God, that building is beautiful. What you expect isn’t what you get. Berghain is fun until the drugs run out and the sun is shining in your face, shrinking your pupils to nothing. Once you’ve reached pure blindness. We’d made it to drum and bass night. Or was it jungle? It doesn’t matter; however, it did matter when we were at the door.


“Who’s playing tonight?” He asked.

“We’re here to see Sneckers,” S said. 

“Who?” He replied.

“Sneckers. They’re playing right now.”


Straight out of a fucking schizophrenic Mr. Bean episode, the door guy looked at the schedule and back at us. It happened very slowly, and without my glasses, he looked like he was smiling and giggling silently. Apparently, he was not. Shocker.


“No. That’s tomorrow.” We stood in silence. S should be working the door here. 



S getting yelled at by security for taking a picture in front of them...zoom in...look closely


“The other place we were at was whack, and we just want to have fun and dance,” S chimes in from behind us. We got in. S would also be the one to tell the door guys to come to the Cafeteria if they ever visited Toronto on the way out while they yelled “GO! GO! Move!” 


It was maybe 6 a.m. when we made it there for the second time, it was a result of getting bored with the music at Oxy, and whatever secret back club we were lured to. Oh, Berghain, you stupid little faux-sex pest. Sure, you can dance, but what do you mean I watched a woman go down on a man as we waited to pick up? I thought this shit was supposed to be gay? Is the German gaydar so completely off? You must also beware, it’s as though the Nazi convention rolls into town at the burning hours, just as hell comes out with the sun rising. 


You can’t really tell the difference between sigylism tattoos and possible fascist dogwhistle symbols. I’d never seen so many blonde, white, blue-eyed people in my life. I don’t understand anti-immigration; why would you want to be around that many white people that smell like eroding coins in a vat of vinegar? Why would you want to be around that many white people sweating 4mmc out, a combination of natural body odour and pool cleaner? I mustn’t be so mean to Montreal.


The skirt sat tucked in my suitcase while I was looking for a smoking lounge at the Stockholm airport. The fucking Stockholm Airport. At around 15, Mr. True Crime and the world's #2 Schizophrenic patient, after Sartre, Ryan Murphy released American Horror Story: Hotel. I devoted my teen years to this show, and I was such a fucking fool for doing so. 



Abandoned hotel in Naxos, my first thought was that this would be a great nightclub because of all the nice spaces it has for dark rooms. But...not everything should be a nightclub.


To go back in time and slap myself so deeply in my face that it would write a thank you letter to my future self that I would have to view every day in the mirror would have done me a favour. Sorry! It was a shit season. Regardless, James March, who owned the Hotel Cortez in the show, was based on H.H. Holmes’s real-life maze-like murder hotel. 


That is what the Stockholm airport feels like. Once you finally find the “smoking lounge,” you’re introduced to a shame pod fashioned in the style of a Bauhause chrome ashtray. The airport was as if a United Colours of Beniton commercial teamed up with a biology textbook to create what they assume to be provocative art of the 2000s universal diversity era. 



Weirdly enough, I can't find the exact smoking area or Bauhaus ashtray that I'm talking about, but this is close enough


Soon, it found itself having staring contests with Greek men who win after they make a little kissy face. I wore it throughout my “sobriety” with S, where I vowed to cleanse my entire body before ultimately crashing it out back in Toronto on my first night back. Piss became sand, and I finally read a book after two long years. 


Cookie Mueller taught me two things while wearing that skirt: You should fall in love with men who are gay, but if you do end up in a lesbian relationship, never honeymoon in Italy, and acid dens are essential for your 20s. I can’t do acid, not after what happened on New Year's 2024. I, however, am more than happy to swap that out for speed. Do you know how productive it is to trap three people in the room with a bag of speed? 75%, at most.



She climbed a wall in a mini skirt. The internet says it was “The Berlin Wall,” but I think that was purely a joke. I didn’t climb a wall, but I did use it as an ashtray at some point. 


The skirt made its way to Warsaw, where I had an 11-hour layover. Stupidly, I had booked my tickets back home drunk. God was watching over me because tucked into my Telfar bag, the skirt was soon at the last 30 minutes at Miami Wars. What was basically a party by the river, I smoked on a rooftop patio. I soon found myself in an apartment, listening to records, talking about selling out, Asha Bosley, and drinking… a martini? I don’t really remember going through security at Chopin.


“Tell everyone that Warsaw is terrible and you hate it, so it doesn’t get [gentrified]!” B told me.


I think I’ll move to Warsaw soon.